Blinks

Sometimes being an angel is too devilish that u just cant take it.

I am the anger in the cave
I am the evil in the lamb
I am the devil inside the child's heart

The only lasting love is a dead one.

Complications of the inner soul leads to distraction, anger, depression, and psycho behaviour disorder.

Me talking crap to the other Me

scream at me again if u like
throw ur hate at me with all ur might
hit me cuz um strange, hit me
u tell me uma p***y and u're harder than me
wat's with u boy, think hard
a tattooed body to hide who u r
scared to b honest, b urself
a cowardly man

um just a f***ing mental
um just too f***ing little


korn-clown

Distracted

Clearing my mind from every thought
From every wish that i've wished
From every person
Clearing my mind is the way...
Clearing my mind from every need
from every lust that i've wanted
Clearing my mind from the day...
Will i have peace?
Will you take me safely through the storm?
Will you guide me through my insanity?
Mind...
Hell of a mind
Conscious?
What pain

Come away with me

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee high
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

Norah Jones - Come Away With Me

Back in 2004

um closing my eyes
but cant stop looking at you
um sweeping all the lies
keeping all that is true
always having u in the back of my mind
always seeing u, but somehow i was blind
cuz having u as afriend was far too much
and keeping u till the end
was something i would not dare to touch
and although u're mine now
i still wish i had thou
and although u're mine now
i still want u to know
that all that i bleed
is only for YOU!!

FUCKING LIAR

good old friends

sweet old sorrow and grief...
welcome back

found in an old paper back in 2004

the consequences of being psychopathed and disordered is tremendously dangerous for blood hound people if you know what i mean...
cuz the seeds of hate are rising high to that blue sky turning to grey...
and if i wake up would it be morning again???
cuz the sun is red but there aint no light
and all this killing and blood spilling is filling me up
and if i stop hating would i quit to be me???
and the normality that hadnt been there for ages would return to the so called me???
but its better being hated than being messed upon, and its better being an idiot than being with brains...
and now if i throw up, u'll see the real me
and if i spill my guts, i'll b lying to u
and if u try to kill me, i'll b standing here bleeding infront of u
and hating is a good way to express how u feel
but death aint the cure for this
um going crazy but um smiling, looking at tomorrow, happy with wat i've got...
but what can a man do if he was tied up, fucked up, and drawn to the world???

Depression test

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	Moderate
Dysthymia:	Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:	Slight-Moderate
Cyclothymia:	Slight-Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Very Slight
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
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